Did I need God to show up today?
I was swinging on my porch two weeks ago, talking and praying with my wife. I was asking God about an annoying trait I have - nothing terrible, but something that my loving wife brought up and so I prayed about it. While praying I heard something so clearly it brought me to tears. Here is what I heard....
Steve...You needed me for salvation, but are you living like you need me today? Are you living every day in a manner that you need me [God] to show up?
That's a convicting statement because my answer was "no".
Through that time of prayer I've come to realize a few things right away, but really I believe this answer to my prayer is just the beginning of a new level of depth He is calling me to.
God is my defense, so why do I feel the need to immediately defend myself? - When I am pushed about something I can improve on, or during times of trouble I immediately try to defend myself or jump to resolve the situation. God is supposed to be my refuge, but It is hard to take refuge in God when I step in and defend myself or try to solve the problem. At times of trouble why do I jump in and try to solve everything? Psalm 46:1 - God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
I realized that I'm just learning to "sabbath"! - If Sabbath is a commandment that was still practiced by Jesus and Paul in the New Testament, why was I missing my sabbath regularly? What does a sabbath regularly even look like? "A great benefit of Sabbath keeping is that we learn to let God take care of us — not by becoming passive and lazy , but in the freedom of giving up our feeble attempts to be God in our own lives" .Dawn, Marva J.. Keeping the Sabbath Wholly: Ceasing, Resting, Embracing, Feasting (p. 4). Eerdmans Publishing Co. Mark 2:27-28, “And he said unto them, The sabbath was made for man, and not man for the sabbath: Therefore the Son of man is Lord also of the sabbath.”
I'm slowing down to find God in the midst of my day. I'm slowing down each week to make sure I live my life in such a way that I actually trust God to show up and need him each day. I'm not perfect at this, but I can see how much better it is...