Lean in: what Faith Looks Like
One of the biggest struggles I had in making the decision to move from marketplace to ministry was the discernment if it was “God’s will”. Was I being “called”. More specifically I wanted to know if God really wanted me to leave the job I loved to move to an opportunity with my local church. What I really wanted was the entire playbook, which I wrote about a previous post. There were small things that seemed to indicate God was in it, but what I desired was a clear sign.
What I’ve learned on the other side of the decision was it takes a few steps towards what you think God might be calling you to before you find out if it is from God or not. Now this might not always be the case, but more often than not we don’t have the Saul experience where God so impales our current methods that it shocks us into following his blatantly loud call.
Think about it, how will you know if God is in a decision unless you take a few steps towards it? Isn’t that faith – trusting God in such a way that if He doesn’t show up it’s likely to be a massive failure? It’s challenging and difficult but He sure gets the glory when things work out! Two great quotes from Jon Acuff and Francis Chan I thought stated this nicely:
JonAcuff, "If you’re going to risk and maybe fail, fail at something that matters. Fail gloriously so that even in failure, lives change."
Crazylove, "I want to live in such a way that I am desperate for God to come through. That if He doesn’t come through, I am screwed."
When I reflect on Paul’s missionary journey I see not only the conversion of his belief system (Acts 9:1-19) but also his desire to lean into new territory where he felt God wanted him to go. The cool thing is when he did lean in God stepped in to help and also stepped in to block his way when it wasn’t God’s will (Acts 16:6 as an example).
I’m just learning how to trust God enough to lean into something and believe He will be there to support me through the process. Even if it doesn’t work out the way I planned, I am trusting Him enough to believe His plans are infinitely better than mine.